Post by Killer on May 3, 2004 7:38:56 GMT -5
Take some time to read.
Have you ever been leaf, tree or wind?
Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand
corner as a trademark for all my watercolors
painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.
There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go
after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't
have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding
charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent,
like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not
going after her is because I felt somebody so
ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm
also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's
gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my
gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to
give up everything just for her. The last reason,
made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me
chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very
demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd
girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was
embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before
running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen
like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think
about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the
whole day. When everybody go back home, she was
alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know
that I returned from soccer training to get
something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once
when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she's not the type that will start
off the quarrel. But I still sided with my
girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was
filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings
and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day,
she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has
ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she
didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked
her out. After going out for a day, I told her
that I have something to tell her. She told me
that coincidentally, she has something to tell me
too. I told her about my break up and she told me
about her getting together. I know whose the guy.
He has been going after her for quite a while. A
very cute guy full of energy, lively and
interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk
of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only
smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the
heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I
couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears
rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times
have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't
acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was
send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I
haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf
departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree
she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot
of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on
very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as
buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I
learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -
Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be
describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten
sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They
were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up,
I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a
mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he
pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to
make the first move? Whenever he had a new
girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time,
my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is
a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he
treat me so well. It's beyond what you will
normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very
heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure
out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one
fine day, he will come & love me. It's like
waiting for his phone call every night, wanting
him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy
he is, he will make time for me. Because of this,
I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to
go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes,
I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and
hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me
relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point
in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him
have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm
& gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the
tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to
give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know
this wind will bring this badly battered leave
far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but
the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf
departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay?
Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A
wind that will blow her away. When I first met
her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new
school. I saw a petite person looking at my
seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she
will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with
her friends looking at him. When he talks with
gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked
at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at
her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something
amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a
kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there
as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside
and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her
eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and
smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She
was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept
the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a
note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow
her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy.
It because leaf never want to leave tree. I
replied her note with this statement and slowly
she started to talk to me & accept my presents &
phone calls. I know that the person she loves is
not me. But I have this perseverance that one day
I will make her like me.
Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no
less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert
away from the topic. But I never give up. If I
decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely
use all means to win her over. I can't remember
how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still
bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will
agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply
from her over the phone. I asked "what are you
doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She
said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't
believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied
loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and
took a taxi and rush to her place & press her
door bell. During the moment when she opens the
door. I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay?
Cherish who you love, open your heart and see who
loves you and lastly, cherish the one who loves
you too. Each of us has our own answer.
Are you tree? Leaf? or Wind?
Have you ever been leaf, tree or wind?
Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand
corner as a trademark for all my watercolors
painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.
There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go
after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't
have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding
charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent,
like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her
intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not
going after her is because I felt somebody so
ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm
also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's
gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my
gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to
give up everything just for her. The last reason,
made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me
chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very
demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd
girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was
embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before
running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen
like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think
about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the
whole day. When everybody go back home, she was
alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know
that I returned from soccer training to get
something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once
when both of them quarreled. I know that based on
her character she's not the type that will start
off the quarrel. But I still sided with my
girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was
filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings
and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day,
she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has
ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she
didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked
her out. After going out for a day, I told her
that I have something to tell her. She told me
that coincidentally, she has something to tell me
too. I told her about my break up and she told me
about her getting together. I know whose the guy.
He has been going after her for quite a while. A
very cute guy full of energy, lively and
interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk
of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only
smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the
heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I
couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears
rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times
have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't
acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was
send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I
haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf
departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree
she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot
of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on
very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as
buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I
learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -
Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be
describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten
sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They
were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up,
I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a
mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he
pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to
make the first move? Whenever he had a new
girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time,
my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is
a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he
treat me so well. It's beyond what you will
normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very
heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure
out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one
fine day, he will come & love me. It's like
waiting for his phone call every night, wanting
him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy
he is, he will make time for me. Because of this,
I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to
go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes,
I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and
hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me
relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point
in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him
have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm
& gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the
tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to
give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know
this wind will bring this badly battered leave
far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but
the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf
departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay?
Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A
wind that will blow her away. When I first met
her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new
school. I saw a petite person looking at my
seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she
will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with
her friends looking at him. When he talks with
gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked
at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at
her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something
amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a
kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there
as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside
and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her
eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her
usual place, looking at him. I walked over and
smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She
was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept
the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a
note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow
her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy.
It because leaf never want to leave tree. I
replied her note with this statement and slowly
she started to talk to me & accept my presents &
phone calls. I know that the person she loves is
not me. But I have this perseverance that one day
I will make her like me.
Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no
less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert
away from the topic. But I never give up. If I
decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely
use all means to win her over. I can't remember
how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still
bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will
agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply
from her over the phone. I asked "what are you
doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She
said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't
believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied
loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and
took a taxi and rush to her place & press her
door bell. During the moment when she opens the
door. I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay?
Cherish who you love, open your heart and see who
loves you and lastly, cherish the one who loves
you too. Each of us has our own answer.
Are you tree? Leaf? or Wind?
